Growing up I never felt like I fit within the perceived notion of how boys were supposed to behave. I remember vividly the first time I was publicly shamed for liking things that boys weren’t supposed to like. It made me feel alone and wholly alien. My size, 6 feet 8 inches tall and 350 pounds, has further complicated these perceptions. In a world where how we define what makes a man is increasingly being exposed as dangerous and threatening and unsustainable to our culture, I feel compelled to explore, through these self-portraits, how straight men, that nonetheless identify towards the femme end of the gender spectrum, like myself, express our identity and how the complexities and nuance of this performance provide a possible alternative to this crushing system of violence and oppression that is undermining civil society.